Brady

I am tired. Let me tell you straight up...I am tired. I have looked at the things that were said to me on Friday backwards and forwards and sideways too. I am overloaded with what to do. As a mom, for me anyway, it is always hard to make decisions about my kids because I am consumed with the fear that I will make the wrong decision. In this situation I will tell you that I am not overall a religious person but I do consider myself to be spiritual and I will pray for the faith I need to know that Brady is in good hands...whatever we decide to do.

He was evaluated by the SLP, with the case worker here again, on Friday. He was verbally at about a 15-16 month level. Cognitively, what he understands, was at about 19 months though. While this is still considerably behind where he should be it is good that he understands more than he says. That means we can catch him up, hopefully.

He also failed his MCHAT. This is not a diagnostic test for autism or ASD but it can be indicative of red flags. Failing means he had the red flags that indicate there may be something wrong. wow. I expected it but was still reeling a bit.

At this point in time I think we are going to wait to have him evaluated further. I am going to copy and paste an email I sent to friends for further explanation. sorry but I have not got the energy to type it all out again.

ok. the reason we will probably wait to have him evaluated is that they wonder if the fact that his speech is so delayed perhaps he "looks" worse than he really is. and perhaps some of the other more autistic behaviors are influenced by his lack of communication. does that make sense?

He would have to be evaluated by the university. You have to have an MD diagnose specifically PDD and probably the other conditions as well. I know, from speaking with the U already, that he would be seen by a developmental pediatrician and speech pathologist at the least. He would probably also be seen by a neurologist and potentially have a pysch eval as well.

there are specific therapies for autistic children. We will be working with some of the more troublesome developmental issues with the case worker. They are fine with me having him evaluated. they did not tell me not to. they just said that perhaps if we wait a bit then he may catch on to some of these things without needing the diagnosis. Obviously, as I am sure you can figure out, a diagnosis is a double edged sword. can be good...can be bad.

I think that it seems reasonable, for now, to allow him a couple more months to work on his speech and see where things go. They will reevaluate him in June to see where he is at and whether or not he would qualify for more help after turning three, since that is when EI ends and he would need to be turned over to the school system for early preschool or something of that sort. I will set up appts at the U for June as well. that way if he is not where he needs to be. or if I still have my concerns then we can get him in there to be evaluated.

I will be honest and tell you that for the most part I am ok with this, but part of me wants to whisk him away immediately and get a DX. part of me worries that I am doing him more harm by not getting him right in to get him evaluated....but that part of me is about as big as the part of me that worries about a dx following him around.

If he is on the spectrum he is obviously very high functioning thing is though that he could possibly eventually function high enough to barely register the spectrum if that makes any sense. I had, up until recently, only shared my concerns with Brad. and no one else. not even my mom. because I wondered if perhaps I was over thinking things. but I have had concerns for a few months now. if I see any of his symptoms or behaviors seeming to become worse or more pronounced I will also be getting him in earlier.

again...sorry for just copying and pasting but I am just too tired to try to type it again.

I am keeping a log of odd behaviors and other troubling stuff. I think I will also start trying to get little videos when I can of the things that worry me.

I am hoping that with the SLP and the case worker helping me out we can start to see some improvements even without an immediate diagnosis.

We will also begin feeding him a gluten free diet, which means we are all going GF since Josey is already.

ok....off to play with the littles. I will update my own blog later once the kids are in bed.